New beginnings here for me. If you’ve been on the journey with me through social media you know I’ve done a little of everything! Lots of new beginnings for me. It took me a really long time to go after my dreams and actually to even be able to verbalize it. Nick and I have been together for sixteen years. Three months ago Nick asked me, “What do you really want to pursue?” As I was getting ready to work Instacart for the second time.
I fessed up…”If I could really do what I actually want I’d pursue fashion. I’d be a fashion content creator. I love clothes. I love how they make me feel and I love helping others feel amazing in their clothes too. But, I don’t know how to do it.”
Truth is, for a long time I wasn’t really sure. Do I go after what is easiest? Makes the most money? Feeds my passions?
I felt really silly to be in my thirties and still trying to figure out who I am and what I want to be when I grow up. My resume filled with so many different gigs for mostly super short stints. Starting after Nick and I got married at 21 years old I had several jobs throughout the years; Nordstrom sales associate, courthouse clerk, Nordstrom Rack sales associate, health insurance receptionist/operator, full time mommy, Beachbody coach, Beautycounter consultant, Instacart shopper, Social emotional behavioral aid/para for an elementary school.
Sheesh! The list goes on and on. Mostly a past of feeling embarrassed of not having any clear path. The thing that I see now and bothers me is that feeling embarrassed means I was worried about what others thought of me. It wasn’t about me. It was about others. The only way embarrassment can take place is if others are involved.
Why the heck was I worried about others? I haven’t a clue. I spent a lot of time worried about if I do this what will people think. If I try this will people think I am silly? etc.
So much wasted energy on the fleeting thoughts of others. Even my own husband. If I tell him I want to pursue fashion and be an entrepreneur will think I’m silly? To no fault of his I was too worried about being judged than about believing in myself and following through.
Does this resonate with you? Did it take you a lot of time to find your niche? Or get the guts to fully dive in? Maybe you always knew who you wanted to be and what you wanted to pursue. If so, that is amazing!!
If you’re a smidge like me I hope this helps. Life is messy. Life is full of ups and downs. I am starting fresh at 32 with a 7 year old and 6 year old. Navigating building a brand built on my passions. It will take time to grow. It will take time to create connections with women and built their trust. Which I am beyond excited to be doing, I want to create connections and build your trust.
I hope these kinds moments help you to get to know me a little more. I am so glad you’re here and so thankful for your time.
Styling room
Here’s a little snippet of me building my styling room out of our formal dining room. It’s not ideal but, it’s the space we have and I love it! I had a really small budget for creating a space to take photos and create videos.
Luckily, I was able to find inexpensive items to meet my needs. The most important being lighting! The room has horrible lighting. Thanks to Amazon I snagged two photography lights. These two have three settings for warm, cool, or white light. The set comes with remote controls and a dimmer. Perfect for my space and a great price point!
I use a tripod to hold my phone for photos and videos. It stands between the two lights. I bought two metal racks to hang clothes I’ll be styling. perfect for planning and steaming.
For the backdrop I found a fiddle tree leaf plant (artificial) for a great price on Amazon and a “pretty” clothing rack to display clothes and shoes. It was super easy to build and again a great price point.
